lifesjourneys

Sorry it was some time ago i wrote last time, but i have had alot to do lately.

I have spent most of my time with my girlfriend.

Oooo ya i have to tell you something!

IM GONNA BECOME A FATHER!

Alexandra is pregnant and it is desided that we are going to keep it,
and the other news is that im going to prison in the end of next month.

Maby not a good time to get a baby but still.

The child will be about 2-3 month old when i get out from prison.

I hope it will be a boy, wish me good luck =)

Over and out!

Last time i wrote i had some good news and this time
i dont have much new to tell,

im still waiting for the appiel courts sentence it eill be here in about one
week but bedides from that i feel great, the girl i met is still mine
and i realy feel in love.
So at the moments im dancing on clouds i hope it will last,
i dont expect it to tho when i think about how little luck i have
had these past months.

But still my hopes are high and i feel great so i will take advantage
of it for as long as i possibly can.

For new readers you better start reading from the beggining all the way down to even understand
a little of what im talking about.

Peace out people!

In time of truble and bad luck.
Something good finaly happened,
I went to Karlstad this wednesday to meet up with a girl (Alexandra)
i didnt expect to much but i was exited and everything went alot better than expected.
So now i have a wonderfull girlfriend. So im realy happy and it feels like it
was a realy long time ago i was realy happy last time .

The bad thing tho is that i will get my sentence in about one and a half week.
And i am sure i will get at least one year prison, the good thing is that the Swedish prisons
are full so it may take some time before i can do my sentence =)

So i will have plenty of time with alexandra before i have to go and hopefully she
will like me enough to wait for me, i dont expect her to but still, i hope she will.

This is a good thing beucose i realy started to belife that nothing good would ever hapen to me again.

Peace out boys and girls stay tuned.

I met my lawyer today to talk about the court tomorow and i got realy bad news at least for the
ones who like me and realy good news for the ones that dont.

The whole point of me appieling was that i wanted a new chanse to defend my self
against the allegations bu i will not get the chanse.

The court of appiel will onley listen to the recordings from the first trial in June so
im literaly screwed now. Best case senario is that thay take of 2 months from my
sentences and that is fucked up in so many ways that i cant express it.

I dont know when exactly but this means that i will soon be going to prison
for at least one year for something that i didnt do.

Its a pisspoor excuse for a justice system!

Tomorow its time to go to karlstad and see my lawyer.
And i can tell you hes not a good one. Everything has taken almost a half year and i
have spoken to him around 10 times, and all of the times i have had to contact him,
i have seen him two times one before the trial in June and during the trial.

And tomorow i will meet him again and it was me who had to make sure it
happenned since the couth of appiel is the day after tomorow.

So i have spent alot of time working on the case my self so it would probably
almost be better if i reprecented my self. But still i want to have him there so
i know the prosecutor doesnt fool me in to something.

But i feel realy prepared and im confident that it will go alot better than in
the first trial. After all the worst that can happen is that i get the same sentence as
in the first trial and i realy feel that it will get better.

My main goal is to get rid of "Assult in court action" if i manage that thay will
take away 6 month from the sentence.

Sorry for bad spelling im a bit tired at the moment.

I dont get why but for some reason i feel realy happy.
It doesnt make sence at all, i usualy dont feel all that great during chrstmas for alot of reasons
but now is not the time to explain that part.

Im a bit hangover, i have not slept, it christmas these are things that normaly dont make me
happy and on top of that im waiting to have a trial and facing prison time.

So why do i feel happy?
Im happy and i dont have a clue why.
This make no sence to me at all.

So in the end of January i will be in court again.

I herd on the news a copple of weeks ago about a man whu
killed someone (Dont know who) the District Court gave
him a long prison time for it.

But he appeal, and the Court of Appeals put him on
free foot no centence at all.

So i still hope that i can reduce my centence in the court of appeals as well.

wich me luck =)

I do not regret anything i have done in my life, sure i would change alot if i got the chance
but i dont regret anything. All my mistakes have made me who i am.

Im an explorer that want to see the world and all its cultures and all its stories.
Im a person that want to mean something to the world when im not around anymore.
Im a person that loves love even if i dont have love in my life.
Im a person that takes everything as it comes,
Im a person that treats life as a friend. Even if life sucks and betray you.
Im a person that hates hate, it make everything harder, trust me i know.
Im a person that people can turn to when having problems, but who will take care of me?
Im a person thats good at picking up the peaces after everything has fallen apart.
Im a leader that could rule the world if i wanted to.
Im a person that will use violence to save someone ells, i do however barely defend myself.
Im an atiest, if god existed i would defy him just to show him he is an asshole.



Im back from Karlskoga now and i wich i hadnt gone there in the first place it was a complete waist of money, money that i dont have i might add. She was allready interested in a guy so she just wanted to hang
out as a friend, that was not what i wanted but still that was the case.
And i still enjoyed the time with her, but not completely how i wanted it but anyhow.

Keep brething world cuz im not gonna let you relax yet!
Not for as long as i can hold my breth or take a single step.
Im the devil standing on your sholder im the angel showing you the
right way. I am what i am and i am everyting, especially to you.

Im gonna leav this life with glory, But not yet i still have alot to accomplish!


Skankedakdedangdangdayskankedagdanday!

Tomorrow im going to Karlskoga a town next to my hometown its onley about 25-30 mintes from here.
Im goind there to meet a girl that i meet many years ago but we lost contact.

And sudenly a copple of days ago she contacted me on facebook and we started talking, the first she wrote to me
was the usual stuff like how are you, what are you doing now days, but in the second message she wrote that
she is single (wich i didnt ask about) so i started thinking, is thats some sort of a signal from her
that she is interested or did she just wanted something to say in beutween all other normal stuff?

I didnt have the guts to ask her about that, but today or i mean yesterday since its after 00:00 she asked
me to come to Karlskoga to meet her tomorrow (Saturday).

And i dont know if im gonna see it as two old friends hanging out after all these time or if i gonna
see it as a date?

i dont have much readers here so i dont expect anyone to write any advice to me, i mostley just wanted to
write it down. Im realy looking forward to see her i have allways had a "thing" for her.

Lets just hope that this will still be a possitive thing after iv seen her.

Actualy she was my girlfriend some years ago but i cant say it was serious cuz we were so young
and didnt realy know anything about the world or feelings, but now we do know those things.
When we were togheter we would have been a perfect fit if it wasnt for me being a complet asshole.

But now im a changed man and i hope that i will be given an other chanse at this.
I dont belefe in god, so i dont ask him for help, but i can tell you that if i did belefe in god i would ask for
his help, thats how much i want this to work out fine.

When it comes to girls i allways have bad luck, Always. So lets hope this will be when it all turns around.

Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet.

Btw, my court appiel was accepted, so i have a date for the Court of Appeals, i write more about it later or after the trial.

I have made an experiment that involves ciggaretes and alcohol.
Lats weekend i ate rice and minced meat and drank 12 beers and i got a little bit drunk.
This weekend i ate rice and minced meat and 12 beers.

The diference i made was that last weekend i did not smoke and this weekend i did smoke.

So was there any diference in how the alcohol affected me?

Yes it was a diference i got more drunk when i did smoke.
I could feel that the beer affected me and after that i went out to take a smoke (normal tobbaco) and after the cigarette i actualy felt more drunk than when i did not smoke, so my conclution was that if you smoke the nicoteen will make you more drunk.

When i was drinking onley beer i was normaly drunk when i took a cigarette a was more drunk even if i had
consumed the same amount of alcohol with the same amount of food and water.

Maby its just the kind of beer i drank or its a fact that the nicoten in the cigarettes make you more
receptive to alcohol.

Today i got mail from Oslo with the news that i did not get the job i was appied for.
So now its just to look for some other jobs, im very confident that i will
get a job in Oslo the onley question is when.

Today (Wed) at 08;20 i did leav my home town for a job intervju in Norways capitol Oslo!
First i met my cusin on the train station and we wnt to make sure that we knew were the intervju was going to be, so that i would get there in time, after that we went the the company he works as a teamleader at and spent some time there just hanging out untill he had to start working.

So i went to the intervju and it went great i actualy met the guy just outside the building so we could start right away.
after the intervju i had some time to do some sightseeing in Oslo so i went the the Royal Palace and wathed the change of guards there, thay were not as impressive as a had hoped for.

And a cople of hours later i was on the train home again so in total i have spent 7 hours on a train today
and i can realy feel it, i always get a bit stiff after a longer train trip.

Those of you who have been reading what i have been writing in the "personal" category probably wonders if
that was just bullshit since i went to an intervju in Oslo but i decided that the fucked up Swedish justice system is not
going to bring me down, and to feel good i need to work, so now im trying to find a job in norway,

Swedish people is very populare on the Norwegan job market since thay know that most swedish people are really hard workers compared with the nowegans who are a bit lazy, but i realy like norwegans.

And i have to say that i think that norway has the best looking girls in the world, closely folowed by Finland .
Swedish girls is not very high in my list of most beautiful but that is probably just beucose i see them every day and i have been growing up with them.

Keep reading, and dont forget to comment, i would be really happy if you comment and tell me what subject you want to read more about. And maby you can tell me how inoying my bad spelling is. ;)

I have known since several years now that Sweden burns tons (literally tons) of wheat grain every year when it is not needed, sure its great that we produce enough to feed the 9 Million Swedes.
And im realy sure that hundreds of countrys do the same thing with other products as well.
So the question is, is this realy wise?

Personaly i think it is insane, wtf helloooo!
We could feed afrikas entire population with what we in the west + some Asian countrys throw away every year!
We could stop world hunger if we wanted to!
So why does is the rich cunts not doing it?
I know why, and im sure you know it as well if you just spend a moment to think about it.
Thay cant make any money on it so thay burn it.

Today i heard a realy good song on the radio that is about this or at least i think it is about this, i dont know if the writer of the song was intending to mean it like that, but i would like to think so.

And now ofcorse you wonder what song im talking about am i right?
Acording to the radio show i was listening to the band is from Canada and just released a new album, doesnt remember the name of it tho, thay also said that this band has never been very big in Sweden but this albus is about to change that.

I have never been a big fan of Canadian musik or its language (Since its blended with french the mix is a bit wierd to me) but i have to admit that this band and this song in particular grew alot in my heart when i heard this on the radio.

Im talking about Nickelback the "hard rock" band from Canada and i have to say i realy like this guys voice it realy fit with the text of the song.

The song is - When we stand together

Youtube link to this song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjCbGHI_4Hs&ob=av2e


Listen to it and think about what i have writen.
Feel free to coment about this and tell me if you agree with me or if you think i should go and hang
my self because im so f-ing stupid.



The days quote;
"To you Im an atheist.
To God, Im the loyal opposition"


Peace

(You find the reason for this in previous articls in the category personal, if i count this post i have posted three articls in this category the headline for the first one is "Fängelse eller inte / Prison or not")



Am i becoming paranoid?

Every since the appeal process started, i have started to jump high for every little thing, as if life sudenly
became a giant scary prank.

It has been geting worse every week now, everytime the phone rings i think it is the police, everytime the mail comes i think i will get a letter from the court saing i have to go to prison the very next day, everytime a door slams i think the police is just outside the door, the cardoor slaming is the worst part since my neighbors seems to love there fricking doorslaming, i hear a car door slam at least ones every ten minutes and everytime it feels like the police is coming. Its better during the nights when the doorslaming onley happens about ones every hour.

So am i becoming paranoid?
Or is it normal under this circumstances?

I hope someone can tell me wich of them it is, if you dont know just tell me wich of them you think
it is, or just comment either you want to make fun of me or help me.



Ooo and i have an ide, the first one to comment on any of my posts, can get the privilege to
deside what my next post will be about, maby a continue in the telling of my volunteer trip? or continue this category, or in politice (in that case wich part of politics ex; racist parties, the biggest parties, the ones who are shrinks. or about politics outside Sweden as Libyr, Israel, Palistine and so on. If you want to deside my next post make sure to write that in the comment) Thanks for reading!

Today has been one of those realy slow days when absolutely
nothing happens, so i hade to come up with something to do
so i sat down at the computer and opened up "Paint" and started
to do a cenario of how Sweden could take control over europe,
(ofcorse that is not possible in real life) but still it is fun to think
about the word "if" sometimes.

And the other video is a cenario on what the economic crisis can
do to a continent how poverty creates war beutween good friends.

I ended up making two movies from the pictures i made in "Paint"
it took me about 6-7 hours to make them both, it is not good
quality on them and thay are not realistic but it kept me occupied
for the entire day so im satisfied.

I am uploading the second one in this very second and i hope it will have finished loading ones i have stoped writing here. And since im gonna link the videos i want to ask you for the favour to watch my other videos on youtube as well and if you like them or at least some of them you can subscribe on my youtube channel (if you have an youtube account).


First one,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbmuOEN5hok

Second one,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89B-mi8jFpw