lifesjourneys

I dont get why but for some reason i feel realy happy.
It doesnt make sence at all, i usualy dont feel all that great during chrstmas for alot of reasons
but now is not the time to explain that part.

Im a bit hangover, i have not slept, it christmas these are things that normaly dont make me
happy and on top of that im waiting to have a trial and facing prison time.

So why do i feel happy?
Im happy and i dont have a clue why.
This make no sence to me at all.

So in the end of January i will be in court again.

I herd on the news a copple of weeks ago about a man whu
killed someone (Dont know who) the District Court gave
him a long prison time for it.

But he appeal, and the Court of Appeals put him on
free foot no centence at all.

So i still hope that i can reduce my centence in the court of appeals as well.

wich me luck =)

I do not regret anything i have done in my life, sure i would change alot if i got the chance
but i dont regret anything. All my mistakes have made me who i am.

Im an explorer that want to see the world and all its cultures and all its stories.
Im a person that want to mean something to the world when im not around anymore.
Im a person that loves love even if i dont have love in my life.
Im a person that takes everything as it comes,
Im a person that treats life as a friend. Even if life sucks and betray you.
Im a person that hates hate, it make everything harder, trust me i know.
Im a person that people can turn to when having problems, but who will take care of me?
Im a person thats good at picking up the peaces after everything has fallen apart.
Im a leader that could rule the world if i wanted to.
Im a person that will use violence to save someone ells, i do however barely defend myself.
Im an atiest, if god existed i would defy him just to show him he is an asshole.



Im back from Karlskoga now and i wich i hadnt gone there in the first place it was a complete waist of money, money that i dont have i might add. She was allready interested in a guy so she just wanted to hang
out as a friend, that was not what i wanted but still that was the case.
And i still enjoyed the time with her, but not completely how i wanted it but anyhow.

Keep brething world cuz im not gonna let you relax yet!
Not for as long as i can hold my breth or take a single step.
Im the devil standing on your sholder im the angel showing you the
right way. I am what i am and i am everyting, especially to you.

Im gonna leav this life with glory, But not yet i still have alot to accomplish!


Skankedakdedangdangdayskankedagdanday!

Tomorrow im going to Karlskoga a town next to my hometown its onley about 25-30 mintes from here.
Im goind there to meet a girl that i meet many years ago but we lost contact.

And sudenly a copple of days ago she contacted me on facebook and we started talking, the first she wrote to me
was the usual stuff like how are you, what are you doing now days, but in the second message she wrote that
she is single (wich i didnt ask about) so i started thinking, is thats some sort of a signal from her
that she is interested or did she just wanted something to say in beutween all other normal stuff?

I didnt have the guts to ask her about that, but today or i mean yesterday since its after 00:00 she asked
me to come to Karlskoga to meet her tomorrow (Saturday).

And i dont know if im gonna see it as two old friends hanging out after all these time or if i gonna
see it as a date?

i dont have much readers here so i dont expect anyone to write any advice to me, i mostley just wanted to
write it down. Im realy looking forward to see her i have allways had a "thing" for her.

Lets just hope that this will still be a possitive thing after iv seen her.

Actualy she was my girlfriend some years ago but i cant say it was serious cuz we were so young
and didnt realy know anything about the world or feelings, but now we do know those things.
When we were togheter we would have been a perfect fit if it wasnt for me being a complet asshole.

But now im a changed man and i hope that i will be given an other chanse at this.
I dont belefe in god, so i dont ask him for help, but i can tell you that if i did belefe in god i would ask for
his help, thats how much i want this to work out fine.

When it comes to girls i allways have bad luck, Always. So lets hope this will be when it all turns around.

Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet.

Btw, my court appiel was accepted, so i have a date for the Court of Appeals, i write more about it later or after the trial.